This Is Me

"Always been the kind of girl 
 That hid my face
 So afraid to tell the world 
 What I've got to say

But I have this dream 
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show 
It's time to let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me

Now I've found who I am 
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be 
This is me" 
~Sung by Demi Lovato

In another spur-of-the-moment decision (like 4:30 this afternoon) I decided to take the kids to see the Jonas Brothers.  Ya know, the whole supermom, they're never going to forget this experience thought process.  So pick them up from school, homework, get clothes ready for tomorrow, run through Chik-Fil-A and then off to the concert.  I didn't even tell them until we got there.  Met up with their cousins and had a wonderful time.  Again.

The song above is from Camp Rock (for the 1 or 2 of you that never turn on the Disney Channel).  I always liked the song but it never held that much meaning for me.  But boy does it now.  "This is real.  This is me.  This is exactly where I'm supposed to be."  I AM exactly where I am supposed to be.  Today really showed that.  Worked my tail off at my new job, even missed lunch, and loved every minute of it.  God knew what he was doing even though I had my doubts.  It's amazing what can happen when you let him take the reigns.

So this is living.  This is real.  This is me.  But the light isn't shining on me.  It's shining from within.  And I love the feeling.